The last time I’ve felt this type of darkness, like a black hole was when I dropped out of Stanford graduate school. That was quite the defeat and blow out of my confidence. 

The supernova has already occurred and the left over supermassive hole in my heart seems to be sucking in light wherever I encounter it. It’s not affecting anyone, it’s just affecting me.

It’s there-inside me. A rotating disc of plasma. I can’t shake it. And only getting bigger. My chest huts. 

Totally sucks.