So I didn’t really drink last night, just a little wine. The sobriety comes from last night’s delusion that perhaps I was going to connect with a new player. It just didn’t ‘pan out.” I went out solo….Delilah Han Solo…sometime you gotta.
So with this one, we texted for days and days, on and off, for over a month. Seemed to get a long and even considered play the time meeting before. Last night I got dressed pretty and a little wild, ready to tie. I wasn’t aggressive and not timid. You can’t get to tie, if you don’t ask. I didn’t get dressed up and bring rope to stand around.
It didn’t happen. I was brushed off.
She played with others, seriously played. Maybe just our energy in person doesn’t work? Interesting.
I did think I messed up and didn’t….I asked her mistress if I could step in and whisper in her ear while being played with….we were watching and I was…
I’ve had this done to me and my former Ex2 did it all the time. I asked, of-course. Ask, it’s not my scene and since we conversed for a month I thought it might be okay to give her a head trip. It’s a trip to the submissive, and throws them off. It clearly did and I got feedback…I’m an adult, responsible Scene player I can take it. Though, I was like, ‘really?’
Players these days are clearly different than days of yore. Sensitive…sometime a bit of experience helps them….It’s easy to look back and me and what I did, criticize, though its just as easy to miss an opportunity to really play, I mean play in the head.
You just stand there and watch…fine I will try and do in error….So you see that’s the head trip of play….I mean one can tie, one can punch, yeah-yeah oh be so dominant….but can you make them think about you the next day?
God morning Sunday!